Enter as a Stranger.. Leave as a Friend

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

If you knew that you would never have your heart broken or be betrayed, imagine how much deeper you would be able to love and be loved. If you knew without a doubt that you would be prosperous and successful, imagine the weight that would be lifted, and the way you would embrace challenges, and life in general. I think this is the way we were intended to feel and live but life jades and changes us. So what is smarter? To live life with a trusting and open heart? Or, to live life careful and protected? What is better.. having a life filled with moments of perfect happiness accompanied by perilous sorrow? Or, would it just be better to live on an even guild and just experience average emotional peaks?? I feel like I have a trigger that goes off in me when ever I feel anything above average.. that says.. "MISTY! Analyze the situation... find the root of your emotion and control it!" I spend more time trying to control my emotions that I do actually experiencing them.

It is a truly helpless feeling when you know you cannot control your emotions.. In the "dating world" people always accuse the opposite sex of playing games. I don't know that I would agree that is what is actually happening. I think in most cases one person will feel themselves falling too hard, or they will feel that helplessness, and immediately they put up some wall. The wall can be manifested in many ways, for people to misconstrue as "games". I put up walls to protect myself because I am the only person who knows how fragile I actually am. Almost every guy I have dated has told me at some point that I am shut down emotionally or too tough. That image is important to me because I feel like if I put it out there, I will constantly hear the positive reinforcement that I am what I really struggle with being.

I struggle with acting on my fleeting emotional peaks and valleys in rash and immature ways, which logic tells me is wrong. I hope that one day my emotions will be healthy enough that I no longer need to spend so much time molding and controlling the way I react to them. I think that would bring me a lot closer to the way I am intended to experiance life love and happines...

Saturday, January 9, 2010

About Me
Here is the basics... My name is Misty. No, I am not a stripper.. just got lucky with a super sexy name ;) ha ha. I am 24 years young, and I love my life. My Mom is my rock, and my inspiration. My family and friends are the most important thing to me. I have an amazing boyfriend, Ryan. He was my best friend for about 2 years and we just started dating in November. He makes my heart smile :) I could not be happier with where my life's lead me.

I started blogging because I needed an outlet. I constantly have random/funny/embarrassing stories that I find entertaining so thought I should share. My grammar is questionable, and I write the way I talk.. choppy and exaggerated. 

In High school I was a bible beating Christian. I am talking evangelical, prayer warrior, over the top Christian. In my early twenties, I developed a much more evolved outlook on life and religion. I believe in God. The rest in neither here nor there. 

I am a thrill seeking, instant gratification, self aware, smart girl. I love beauty, individuality, confidence, and humility. This is me in  nutshell... Thanks for stopping by my blog! I am a comment whore so please become a notch on my blog bed post. ;)

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Best NYE Ever!
This New Years Eve was the best I have ever had. We went up to Pinetop AZ, and stayed in a cabin for the weekend. We had a party bus pick us up and take us to the most po-dunk dive bar you could imagine. We rolled up with about 10-15 people and partied our faces off. We made friends and danced with all the creepy locals, got drunk then went home and played Wii bowling. I started off 2010 with a boy I love, and truly amazing friends. Can't wait for what the rest of the year holds.