Fridayitis

Weird Day..

It is Friday and I am dying to leave the office! I have a standard night of Scottsdale bar crawling and fist pumping ahead of me with my BF Ryan. The past two weeks have been so stressful at work! I have spent the last two weekends working on a business proposal that I presented to my VP yesterday. I was so nervous to give it to her because I put so much work into it, and I wanted it to be perfect! Thankfully, she absolutely LOVED it. She was thoroughly impressed, and is going to implement many of the changes that i suggested. Besides the gratification I got intellectually, and professionally, I got a RAISE! Although all the pieces of my life seem to be falling into place right now there is still one gaping hole.... The love life. My last Boy Friend, Rob and I broke up about 6 months ago and I thought that I would be all about the single party life but I am definitely NOT. I miss sharing life with someone, and the closeness of letting down your guards and feeling safe. I do not ever want to get back with my ex but this is the first time that I have been single and have not wanted to go crazy. I think that this last relationship was the first time i was really, uninhibited, UN guarded, vulnerable, and 100% myself with a guy. I hope that I can find someone again that i trust with my heart.. so far...in Scottsdale... i do not see it happening. I am blessed with some of the best friends a girl could ask for and without them i would have felt the hurt so much more. Dating was always like a sport to me, and I have always been extremely good at it. I have met a lot of guys lately, and all of them are missing something (everything). Dating has become a chore! I can accept that the boys I am dating now are just helping me pass the time but for heaven sakes...Mr. Right now is even falling short of his LOW expectations. Perhaps I have been spoiled and my standards are unrealistic but... I am not the "settling" kind of girl!

Mr. Right.... I am ready... Hurry!!!!!